Yeah... that didnt last long. I realized I'm lazy. and I like food. And I was working full time, finishing my masters, and raising a family. so I failed. And now Im a big fat failure because I think I have actually gained weight. which sucks. But now I am done with school. And I have time. Im still broke as hell, but I have time. I guess I should look into the gym. Id like one with a pool, but I think theyre too pricey for my wallet. At least for now.
In the mean time, I guess i need a place to vent. Because as much as I love my family, I often times find myself wanting to walk away from them.Maybe not forever, but for a little while so they learn to appreciate me. Because I feel like the only one who does anything. I work full time, I cook the dinners, I make the lunches, I get the kid up and ready and off to school, I do all the laundry, i fold the laundry, i even put it away (eventually) all the while hearing my DH bitch and moan about how its not put away or how he has no clean clothes. But GOD FORBID he actually do something about it. I only finished school this week, so I was doing that on top of everything else. I need a break. And DH is so effing moody I can't figure him out day to day. Today he was crabby, but couldnt snap out of it and we went to a family dinner at my parents and my sister and niece and nephews and cousin were there and he sat on the couch and looked at his phone almost the whole time. Didnt get up to help when his daughter dropped her entire plate of food, didn't interact with anyone. He told my mother he felt "disconnected". You dont get to disconnect from your kids and your family and rejoin when you feel like it. It doesnt work that way. And its frustrating because now hes sitting next to me on the couch at our house SNORING. While the kids are playing and I am typing and bitching and being annoyed. Because I know when its actually time for bed, he'll lay there and play a game on his effing Kindle Fire for an hour and then either roll over and ignore me or want to be intimate, which given his attitude today, I have ZERO desire to be. I guess I feel better just getting it out. Somewhere. Not that anyone reads this. But at least I can get it off my chest. Men suck, I want to leave my kid and step kids somewhere for three days and go AWAY from it all, but then..... I don't get to "disconnect" like someone else around here and get away with it.......
